Absence Of Fear - Part Ten

Absence Of Fear - Part Ten

By: Felicity


E-MAIL: felicity@SunnydaleHigh.zzn.com
SUMMARY: There's a new face in Sunnydale... Jewel Kaufman! Oh, and Spike gets his soul back.
DIST/ARCHIVE: Ask first
DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the characters except Jewel (and I don't really own her 'cause she's her own person and therefore owns herself...but the WB and Joss Whedon and all definitely don't own her! btw, they're the ones that own the other people)
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This takes place in early August and it pretty much goes with the show up through Graduation 2, but not exactly, there's one big difference I'm not gonna say cause most people haven't seen it yet, and I don't think there are any real spoilers. Anyway, besides that, the song "Losing My Light" is © Jewel Kaufman and Felicity Rose. "Absence of Fear" is by Jewel (not the one in the story, the other one) and "Sometimes" is by Britney Spears. Besides that, I love comments! I hope this isn't too long! Oh, and it's all dedicated to the real Jewel whom I love a ton, and I definitely would never have gotten this finished if it wasn't for her (not to mention not even writing it...)


Jewel glanced around frantically. They were surrounded by vampires. Buffy and Angel had obviously been caught as unaware as she had. She turned back to Drusilla. Spike had turned toward his former lover, releasing Jewel but keeping her hand tightly in his.

"Well?" Drusilla asked petulantly.

"Well what?" Spike asked easily, his smooth voice casual.

"You don’t love me anymore. You love her," Drusilla accused, pointing one long, painted fingernail at Jewel. The singer took a step backward at the mad hate in the vampire’s eyes, but Spike’s hand tightened and she took a deep breath and stood strong. "They made you like them. You don’t love me anymore." Jewel looked to Spike, who’s face was tight and sad.

"No, pet, I don’t," he replied quietly, his voice full of an odd kind of grief. Jewel squeezed his hand this time, and he seemed to gain a bit of strength from it. Drusilla’s face twisted at the words, first falling and then gaining a childlike anger.

"You don’t get to come to my party then. Remember, you promised me a party, right here, but now you’re not invited. And all your little friends are going to be refreshments," she growled. There were gasps and a few frightened screams and then the room went silent.

"Now now Drusilla, let’s not be hasty," Buffy said stepping forward. "You forgot one thing."

"What?" the vampire asked, resuming her childish petulance.

"Me," the Slayer replied, and before Jewel could even blink she’d spun around and kicked a vampire twice, knocking him to the floor. Angel spun into action at the same time and a second later Spike did so too, going for the nearest vampire before they had a chance to hurt anyone. Jewel stood for a second, unsure of what to do, then saw a girl being grabbed and ran to help here, just praying she wasn’t getting herself killed.

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"Buffy!" Xander cried. Buffy punched once more then turned in time to catch the chair Xander had thrown at her. She smashed it to the ground and threw one of the legs to Angel, spun around to stake a vampire that was jumping at her. Having done that she threw the makeshift stake to Spike, grabbed the next two and threw one back to Xander. She glanced to make sure he was doing all right and then looked for her next victim.

Angel was exchanging blows with two. She pushed someone out of her way as gently as she could and jumped into a kick, knocking one of them right into her boyfriend. He held up his "stake" just in time and the vampire burst into dust. He nodded at her and she turned away, knowing he would be fine with the one he had left. Her eyes landed on Jewel valiantly battling a vampire for a shrieking pre-teen. She shook her head and ran over, blocking the vampire’s attempted blow to Jewel’s head. She looked confused and tried to get around Buffy but Jewel stepped back, pulling the other girl with her and let Buffy get in to fight. The Slayer delivered a roundhouse kick to the vampire’s abdomen, then spun around, exchanging punches. The vampire managed to sweep her feet out, but Buffy rolled and came up easily, delivering a scissor kick to the vampire’s head and then flipping her over Buffy’s shoulder to the ground.

"Jewel," Buffy called, seeing a young man about to become vampire-fodder. The singer raced over and Buffy handed her the stake. "Heart," she ordered. She left, hoping Jewel could do it and grabbed the vampire’s head as it bent it to boy’s neck. She snapped it back and he let go of the young man, who stumbled away in shock. Buffy punched the vampire solidly, yanking his head down and around. He got over the shock and tried to grab her but she succeeded in holding him an arm’s length away. For a little while at least. Long enough for Willow to come up from behind and smash a glass over his head. He slumped to the floor. The friends shared a smile and then Buffy spun around, looking for more. Seeing yet another emergency, up on stage, she ran off and leaped up, ready to fight.

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"Bollux," Spike muttered as some hysterical girl latched on to his arm.

"Save me!" she screamed. "Save me!"

"Just be quiet," he told her crossly, trying to figure out how to shake her off without hurting and her and surprise the nearest vampire.

"Please," she sobbed. He rolled his eyes.

"Dear God," he muttered and pointed her towards a table. "Go hide," he instructed firmly. Sobbing, she did as she was told, leaving him to fight. He did, coming up behind a vampire and kicking him in the back. He stumbled forward and spun to face Spike, who recognized him as one they’d picked up a few weeks before…Kris or something.

"Traitor," Kris cried at him. Spike sighed.

"Cut the crap," he told him. "I’m not a bloody traitor, I’m just on the right side now that’s all. Shall we have a debate about it or shall we fight?" Fight seemed to be the answer of choice, because Kris attacked. Spike blocked his first punch, and threw a right hook into the other vampire’s eye. He ducked the next jab, jab, hook combination and drove a fist into Kris’s stomach. In a human, that would knock the air out of them, but no such luck in a vampire. He stumbled back slightly and then brought a heavy blow down on Spike’s head. Spike let himself fall to the ground, then spun, knocking out Kris’s feet. He rolled up and kicked Kris in the side a couple of times, and then in the head. He motioned Oz, who had some kind of stake-like object over and turned to find another foe.

There was a moment of calm as his eyes took in all the little battles around the room. Buffy was fighting someone up on the stage, Angel and Xander were finishing off another, several high schoolers had teamed up and seemed to be doing pretty well. Willow was muttering a spell from a corner. But where was Drusilla?

And where was Jewel?

"William!" a shriek pierced the noise and Spike spun, his heart convulsing. He saw them—Drusilla had Jewel tight in her grip. As he watched with horror, unable to move, the insane vampire spun Jewel around and caught her eyes. Though he couldn’t hear her, he knew her words, knew the singsong voice and though he couldn’t see Jewel’s eyes, he knew the glassy look that was beginning to appear.

All of a sudden his movement came back. "No!" he screamed, shoving aside anyone in his way. "Jewel!" The room seemed to slow, and he felt as if every step took hours. Drusilla could kill her. She would kill her.

He stopped a few feet away as Drusilla spoke to him, not taking her eyes from Jewel’s. "I could kill her Spike. Should I? You wouldn’t be happy with that would you?"

"Dru, don’t do this," Spike warned. Dru swayed softly back and forth and Jewel did the same. If he attacked, Drusilla could kill Jewel before he could stop her.

"Why not?" she asked with a pout. "You don’t love me anymore. You love her. Why shouldn’t I kill her?"

"Because I’d hate you forever and I’d punish you. No more tea or cookies ever, no more dolls to play with. Not even Sunshine," Spike warned, trying to control the utter panic that gripped him. He had to trick her, use her child-like mind against her. "Now be good," he said soothingly. "Be good and come here to Daddy."

"You’re not my Daddy!" Drusilla cried, then in a softer, sad tone, "My Daddy is bad now too. You all left me, all my daddies."

"I haven’t left you love," Spike reassured her, hating himself for deceiving her, hating what he had to do to her. She was evil and yet…she couldn’t help it. She was what she had been made to be. Once she had been a beautiful, good young woman and now she was a creature of darkness, her mind forever that of a child.

"Really Spike? You do love me?"

"Always," he told her and somehow, that wasn’t a lie. He did love her, in a way. It was more of a pitiful kind of love, a parent for a child they know they can’t save, but he did love her. At the word, Drusilla’s face lit into a smile and she almost stepped toward him, almost released Jewel. Then she stopped.

"What if you’re lying. You love her, maybe you’re just trying to save her," she murmured.

"Dru—" he began, but she cut him off.

"Better just kill her anyway, and then we’ll have more fun at our party," she said and in one second Spike’s entire being convulsed and he leapt forward, seeing her long fingernail flashing out, moving toward Jewel’s pale neck and then the impact of wood in flesh and Dru’s eyes left Jewel’s and met him. Her hand moved up, ever so slightly, towards his face and the pain and love in her eyes, for just one moment, wasn’t childish at all. And then she was gone, into dust. Jewel slumped down and Spike barely caught her, still held by the eyes of the woman he had loved for a century and more.

"William," Jewel whispered. He looked at her, really looked and knew he had done what needed to be done, and that he would choose this woman, that he held in his hands any day of that century.

"You’re safe," he murmured, reassuring her as best he knew how, and himself too. When he thought he would lose her again, after just finding her…his elegant fingers caressed her face. "You’re safe."

"Is everyone all right?" Jewel asked. He helped her up, his arms still encircling her protectively. They looked around. Most of the vampire were dead or knocked out and the few that were left were trying to flee now that Drusilla was dead. Killed by the hand of the man she loved. Vampire she loved.

"I think so," Spike replied.

"Are you all right?" Jewel asked, reaching up to bring his eyes back to hers. She must have seen some of the pain there, because she pulled his face down to her shoulder and kissed his hair, murmuring, "I love you." Spike turned his face to catch her lips, her sweet, soft lips.

"Sing for me," he whispered, swallowing hard. And so she sang, in that dark crowded room, and all the people around, scared or triumphant or tired, listened and knew that whatever happened, love would always banish fear.

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"You know, this always happens," Buffy complained later as they all left the Bronze, satisfied everyone was all right or being taken care of.

"What?" Jewel asked, never loosening her tight grip on Spike’s hand.

"Vampire attacks," Xander answered. "In for a night at the Bronze, those lousy vamps never fail to make an appearance. And they don’t even pay the cover!"

"Yeah, none of them gave me any tips," Jewel sighed, a half smile on her face.

"It’s the Hellmouth," Oz said.

"Yep," Buffy agreed, glancing up at Angel.

"Yeah," he agreed, catching her eyes and smiling despite himself.

"Glad we’re all agreed," Xander remarked wryly. Buffy swatted at him with her free hand but he dodged out of the way.

"I kinda like Sunnydale actually," Jewel said quietly after a moment of silence. She glanced sidelong at Spike to gauge his reaction. He was smiling.

"It has it’s moments," he replied. "Bloody great town." Their eyes met and both smiled.

"So are you staying?" Willow asked hopefully. There was a moment and then together, Jewel and Spike nodded.

"I think so," she said, as he replied, "Well blast me if we aren’t." They laughed softly, happy to be in agreement, happy to be together.

"Well gosh, glad that’s settled!" Xander exclaimed. "Who’s for candy?" Buffy laughed.

"We better go tell Giles that he doesn’t have to spend anymore time worrying about Drusilla’s next move," she pointed out. Xander wrinkled his nose.

"Spoil my fun!" he exclaimed, imitating the Slayer. She laughed and let Angel draw him to her for a kiss. Xander rolled his eyes in mock-disgust.

"To the library then," Spike said softly, drawing Jewel to him as well. She linked her arms around his neck.

"And after that," she murmured, "who knows where?"

"Anywhere," he replied softly, and leaned down to kiss her beneath the stars.


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